If you’re a regular on this site, you’d know that I have talked a few times about my addiction to chewing stones/clay and my struggles to overcome them…it has been over a year and believe me, it has been quite a journey. The longest I went without chewing stones was two months and no, I didn’t feel heroic at all, I felt terrible with each passing day. I would reach for stones and there would be none within reach…that helped. Previously, I tried to go through with stones around me…but with a STRONG determination to eat none- I always failed. These days, I keep none around me and that helps.
Why then do I think the battle maybe fruitless? Do I think I want to fall off from my one month stone free journey so far? Am I shopping for excuses? No…not at all. I believe that in this information age, I could get answers to questions like- is chewing stone harmful to the body? -in abundance…you know, supported by many studies and all that, the contrary has been the case. There are many proponents of stone chewing and no…this isn’t PICA (a disease that describes those who eat dirts)! I don’t eat dirts and the stones I chew are sold in the market…and are clean (on the surface). The whole arsenic stuff doesn’t ring true if there are no results from extensive studies (isn’t that how to prove or disprove a theory these days?) So, how can it not be fruitless if there are good sides to it…and no concrete data to say stones/clay are bad for me?
I am going forward with determination to eat no stones anymore…because, I hate anything having control of me. Stones do…used to. I would move heaven and earth to chew them…and plenty of them too. I knew the sweet ones, the bad ones, the salty ones and the burnt ones.
Stones calmed me and gave me a fix/high, no other food or drink ever can (could). But, I wouldn’t recommend them to anyone anymore though…don’t! They make me a lot thirstier or rather, I wanted to drink more water cos they were thick in the mouth…wouldn’t that be courting constipation too? Lol…don’t start if you never did try and if you love it…what can I say? Be sure you can stop.
What do you think? Should I go forward and try to never eat stones anymore…or should I just eat my stones anyway?